I’m a work in progress

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As many of you already know, I am all for figuring out how we can disagree in a healthy way, how we can have many different, opposing views and still co-exist in a healthy way. I consider it a form of wealth. In most instances I will make time to have a conversation and see it to the end (no matter how hard it is), so when I say I wanted to get up and walk away from this conversation, please understand what that means. I felt that I had reached a dead end. That there was nothing of value that I could add to the conversation or take from the conversation, it was almost as though I would have been contributing by walking away. Afterwards, I got home, still feeling fragile and worked up from some of the personal attacks I had endured in the conversation. That is where this thought process was sparked from. I shared it as a status update and the over 100 likes and comments showed me that it resonated deeply with many people (some of which stopped me in the streets to say “thank you” and “I agree”) so I thought I share it over here too.

“I am not a socialist, nor am I a capitalist. I am not black. I am not a coconut. I am not anti-American nor am I pro-African (I know that I have just compared a country to a continent – no need to point it out). I am not a feminist either. I am an individual that is bi-polar & schizophrenic and wild and tame and confused and self-assured. I am masculine and feminine. I am confused and certain. I am a puzzle made up of beautiful as well as ugly. I’m a talker. I’m a listener. I’m loud. I’m silent. I’m passionate and apathetic. I am part of the “system(s)” and I am not. I am all of this and none of this. You know why? I am a product of all I see and encounter. I am a work-in-progress. I’m allowed to be.”

There’s No Such Thing as White Music

I have been experiencing a high level of brain activity lately. Brain vs Heart activity. My brain tells me about reality and my heart whispers tales of the soul. My brain points out race and racism, my heart reminds me that it is merely a construct of our society and that souls have no race. My brain tells me to work hard and pursue a life with the comforts of money, my heart smiles warmly and shows me pictures of where I would rather be – next to a lake with the sun beating down on my backside. My brain tells me I am a woman that needs to prove herself at every turn, my heart soothes me and massages my back from the inside out “Didi, your amazingness shines through in your every move and every word, you have nothing to prove to anybody, lest of all the non-believers”.

My friends tell me I listen to white music. My heart dances to the tunes I choose and whilst dancing screams with arms raised to the ceiling “there’s no such thing as white music!” and continues to dance across the room with carefree abandon.

Here is a collection of music that my heart and I groove to, cry to, dance to, laugh to, relax to:


https://soundcloud.com/bong-kim/4-asa-eye-adaba

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Why you should say YES to the most impactful year of your life – study in Sweden…

The name of this blog rests completely on the reason for starting the blog. This blog was initially intended to be a portal of information and keeping in touch while I studied in Sweden at the International Youth Initiative Program. It has since evolved into a space of connection, sharing and a place that others that have studied there come for comfort, joy or the reminder of times gone by.

Today I received an email which announced that applications for the 7th year of YIP are now open.

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It is only now (about 2 years since completing my year of study) that I see the invaluable experience that YIP was. Since YIP I have seen my dreams and wishes come to life. Since YIP I have re-discovered myself and the power that Didintle Ntsie possesses. I have felt so inspired that there was no other way to live life but to live it as I have always wanted to. YIP offered me the fertile ground to plant seeds, nurture the plants that grew and take the fruits from that plant and share them in the world.

YIP has been the catalyst to me finding the best version of myself (an ongoing expedition…)

YIP is the reason I forgive, it is the reason I understand people better, it is the reason I am able to accept, it is the reason I am able to remember that there is nothing (and I mean that) that can stand in the way of me reaching my goals, dreams and desired outcomes.

It made real to me the truths I had whispered in my ear since I was born, that “anything is possible”

(CLICK HERE TO APPLY NOW —> DEADLINE 15th MAY 2014!)

Since YIP I have been an important part of a team that co-founded an amazing global citizen-driven initiative called 100in1day Cape Town, I have also finally plucked up the courage to birth an idea I have had for over 4 years, it has come to this earth as The Travelling Speech Bubble. I am now working in an organisation that is forward thinking and impactful in it’s work. I am where I should be, and there are no doubts in my mind.

Since YIP I have begun writing a short story.

All these things because YIP reminded me that I could and I can.

Take some time to think about the things you would like to achieve.

Take a moment to think about the YOU that YOU would like to become.

Take a moment and think about a wall of mirrors that are all there to show you something about yourself.

Take a moment to do this for yourself, in order to better share yourself with others.

I humbly, warmly, lovingly invite you to apply to participate in the most enlightening year of your life with other phenomenal beings from all over the world.

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2013 in review

Last year I received the same kind of report and decided to keep it private, this year I am doing things a little differently. Here is a summary of my Blog’s annual report!!

Thank you all for visiting this Blog and commenting and pulling me aside to discuss the contents in person and for all the private emails, messages and phonecalls. You are my fuel!

A super-special tack to “The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys” who prepared this 2013 annual report for my blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 8,700 times in 2013. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 3 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

Click here to see the complete report.

A sprinkling of good news!

Hi everyone,

I’ve just popped in to share the fantastic news that I have been invited to host a blogging workshop with Innovate The Cape which is partnering with Harvard, MIT Media Lab and UCT for a phenomenal project aimed at creating innovative solutions using technology and science. It is aimed at High School Students.

Click here to read more on The Travelling Speech Bubble site!

The inexplicable emotions we dive in and out of

The last week has been a rather strange week, although fulfilling in that I have been doing what I love and emparting my knowledge and skills of blogging and photo-taking.

However I have been feeling inexplicably sad and drained.

This evening, after a wonderful day and evening.

I sat down, called my mom and another friend and then sat in silence.

The silence was followed by a feeling of intense sadness and of missing a dear friend. A very particular friend. I haven’t seen him in years and found myself in tears from missing him. Oh dear, what has happened here?

I was moved to a point that I HAD to write and share my appreciation for this friend. I did so over here.

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100in1day Cape Town – an urban tribe!

100in1day meetings always leave me feeling so energised. I feel like I step into my power in my fullest way. I have never had a single moment of doubt from the moment  I began working on the project (almost 6 months ago now! What?!)

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Even when seemingly impossible tasks and methods where brought into my path, I never allowed myself doubt, only a second to close my eyes a deep breathe and a healthy dose of panic followed by boldly & (I’m certainly not the smoothest person this world has encountered however I would like to hope and think I did so gracefully too) stepping forward and putting my hands, mind, heart (and often voice) to good use at every turn and waking hour. It all felt so good!

{I’m sorry I can’t remember who took this photo, all the people I could think of are too busy jumping in the image in question!}

This Monday (at the Call For Team Members event) was a repeat of that same experience.  Except this time it had been a long time since I last opened the “100in1day Cape Town box”. We opened it at It’s a house – photographed below, located in De Waterkant.

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I was quite nervous, but once again, the people begin to trickle in and we do our beginning exercise which I have now begun calling the 100in1day ritual! And then a game or 2 and then the presentation starts and then I feel like I’m home again, amongst my people, my tribe. A urban tribe consisting of people that are dreamers that do or would like to be more like the dreamers that do, people that live in Cape Town and are itching to help co-create a more liveable and loveable city, people that operate from a beautiful place that is fuelled by all kinds of wonderful notions, beliefs and experiences. The kind of people that are the reason and power behind 100in1day’s sheer epicness (this word had to be used here).

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This week we sat together in groups divided into the different organisational teams that brings a little working structure for 100in1day Cape Town. If you’re asking yourself what those are. Look no further than below here: (If you take a close look, you will notice that the Cape Town community is at the heart of the organisation and without that the structure lacks stability and simply doesn’t make sense! So the Cape Town community is crucial to the success and continuation of the initiative!)

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There is a variety of your skills and talents you can put to great use; equally there lies a potential to flex some non-existent or struggling muscles that need and want some exercise.

A fertile soil for growth.

Here are some images I took(I’m a beginner photographer, so beginner I couldn’t bring myself to graduate myself to an amateur photographer)

Want to see more images of what went down? Well then, click here for an album posted on the 100in1day Cape Town Facebook Page with some really beautiful images snapped up by the talented and amazing Miss Meghan Sinesipho Daniels of Ilizwe Photo club.

There is a lot of potential for out-of-this-world developments and collaborations to come to life, that excites me deeply. It’s very exciting to have new hands on deck!

Keep your eyes glued to the 100in1day Website and Twitter @100in1daycpt for a more detailed status update and how you can get involved.

If you would like to get involved simply email team@100in1day.co.za

Dear 100in1day Cape Town, thank you for stoking my fire and for allowing me to do what I do best – start and ignite mini fires within people and my surrounds.

With gratitude from @TheDidiness