I haven’t made any New Year’s resolutions as such. I’ve simply made a list of people from my past and present who I need to mend or improve relationships with.
I’ve identified the two most common denominators that have happily helped me to this point with this list of people.
The ego (what a trouble maker)
Lack of clear communication.
The funny thing is that when I look at myself I note my constant battle with my ego and feel I am winning (the concept in itself is so ironic), and also, I think I’m a fantastic communicator; yet, drawing up this list made me realise how far off the mark I really am.
Sometimes it’s so much easier to live in my head and weave pictures that satisfy me instead of opening my eyes to the reality that lies before me. This in itself is unclear communication with myself.
It’s so much easier to live there – in my head, where the birds chirp and the sun shines constantly.
One more thing I have added to my to-do list (it’s not a New Year’s resolution as it’s been on my list since last year around November already) is this:
“I need to practice more patience with the unfolding of my life”
I often condemn society’s obsession with instant gratification and have failed to realise that I myself am a slave to this seductive tendency. Mine is not so much related to the acquisition of things, it is more tied to the curiosity and impatience with the unfolding of my life and the stories that are the people in my life and their relationship to me, which is a constantly changing commodity.
I’m a LEO and I know this has something to do with my make up – together with a lot of other things. I’m openly attributing a portion of my struggle with taming my ego to the Lioness that lies within and occasionally makes a dramatic appearance pouncing out in the shape of actions and words.
The wiser me knows that this is not the beginning nor the end of the constant gardening I will have to do on my soul.
So this is what she has reminded me, which calms me down, reminds me to breathe and allow myself to accept my imperfections and my inability to avoid making mistakes.
And most important of all, the comforter of all comforters is this here snippet of advice…