I had a whole list of things that I wanted to blog about, but then my plans were interrupted by a conversation I had with Matthew Pike , an ex YIPPIE and overall great guy.
Our conversation, as brief as it was, sparked something in me.
This is the quote that Matthew sent, to remind me of what we both know I needed being reminded of – “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
It re-awakened a sleeping giant.
It comes in this form:
I often shy away from listening to the (above-mentioned) words and finding a comfortable spot in the world due to them. Particularly the part that says “Your playing small does not serve the world”.
I have a HUGE personality and presence and often feel apologetic for who I am and what I do. Which I know in the depths of myself is ridiculous but I can’t help but constantly ask myself this “When I am being myself fully, how do I do it in a way that does not sideline others and their growth and how do I make sure that I am not taking up too much space and therefore hamper the growth of others, by simply dismissing my being myself as being a huge presence and personality?”
Big question, that I suspect I will be tackling for some time to come.